Life Choices.

So I recently decided to change my major, which is a pretty big deal seeing as I've been doing the same thing my entire life. I'm a musician straight to my bones; I live, breathe, and speak music. If I could eat music, I probably would. I've performed solo and in groups since I was a little, all the way back to when I was around five years old, and its been a huge part of my life ever since. But then I decided to major in music in college, and it broke my heart when I realized what a mistake I'd made. Now, instead of music being my outlet, it's become the source of all my stress. I've never been this tired in my entire life. It's a 24/7 ordeal, a non stop circle of anxiety and self doubt. It's brought my confidence level down to a flat zero, and my passion, what I once loved, has turned into a chore. So, for the first time in my life, I skipped a class. I hid in a practice room for a good hour and a half, cried, and called my dad. I had reached my limit; I couldn't do it anymore.

So now I'm taking my life in an entirely different direction. Instead of sticking to my original plan of staying in school for five to six years and eventually becoming a music teacher, I'm majoring in Communications with the hopes of cosmetology school in my near future. I've honestly always wanted to do something different, but I was too scared to stray from what I'd only ever known. Even though its a huge life choice and everything's changed, I'm really truly happy. I feel like a huge weight has dropped off of me. I have a moment to think. I can breathe. Even though I haven't finished my music classes yet for the semester, I don't feel half as stressed knowing that it'll be different next year. I'm just trying to finish strong and move on.

I'm a little lost on what to do with the rest of my life. Now that I'm not constrained to one path, what do I do? What career should I peruse? What's my goal? It's really exciting, I've always felt like I only had one option; a music teacher. Now it seems like there are endless possibilities and I can chose any of them. I can make anything I want to out of my life. I'm happy.

You haven't known true elation until you have decided to follow your dreams.